Alex Hollywood, the ex-wife of Great British Bake Off judge Paul Hollywood, has broken her silence and opened up about the impact of her divorce from the star.
Alex and Paul announced news of their divorce back in November 2017, releasing a joint statement which read: ‘It is with sadness that we have decided to separate.
‘Our focus continues to be the happiness of our son, and we would ask the press and public to allow us privacy as a family during this very difficult time.’
Now, speaking to Prima magazine, Alex has revealed the dramatic impact that the split had on her life, saying: ‘No one should underestimate how separation and divorce can hit you.’
”I compare it to a moment where you’re driving along the motorway and then the next moment, something beyond your control happens and you’re driving in a completely wrong direction. You have to give yourself time to get your head round it.
‘We all reflect differently and I went into automatic pilot to start with. I think I went though the same five stages of grief that a bereaved person does [denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance]. Being able to be weak is a strength too, and it’s okay to sit and have a cry.’
Reflecting on her 20-year marriage, Alex described her time with Paul as pleasantly ‘ordinary’ – with the exception of a ‘hiccup’ when her husband fell for his fellow judge Marcela Valladolid while filming the American version of Bake Off in 2013.
At the time, Alex began divorce proceedings, but reunited with Paul after what he later described as ‘the biggest mistake of his life’. She maintains that repairing their relationship was the right thing to do in that moment.
‘I thought things through and it was the right thing to do for me and my son. Hindsight is a wonderful thing, but if you make a decision you stick with it,’ she added.
‘I don’t feel angry with Paul – though of course there’s a certain amount of hurt. Anger is emotive and I’m not carrying that around with me. All it does is upset you.’